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This sums up everything that is my humor

I've developed the habit of waking up and listening to the new Radiohead, constantly. It isn't a bad way to start the day, and I guess it give you some motivation to do something.

I need a job, badly. No one will ever understand the amount of guilt i feel asking my parents for money so i need to figure out a way to balance school and work. It is the only way I'll be able to sleep soundly at night... or at least it will eliminate one of the various thoughts running through my mind.
The thing about the city, or more-so my school, is that there are so many people I wish I could talk to just based on appearance. But I don't know how to do this. I just think of how odd it would be if someone were to randomly pop up and start conversation with the intension of forming some type of relationship. ACTUALLY, it is odd because it happens so fucking often here. First it is bad to judge a persons worth on their “look” but i cannot help but feel like I am back in middle school (I say middle because going to an all girls school for high school I missed out on those four vital years where people based your importance on your “look”. We had no look, we were all carbon copies of each other) looking up to all the older kids hoping to start some sort of conversation. Whatever, everything happens for a reason. I am a 12 year old boy trapped in the body of a college aged girl. so. sad.
[I need the CS3 so bad on this laptop]

So hows life? Its pretty good for the most part with some burst of standard depression and constant anxiety. There isn't much I can do about that stuff while I'm away, but 75% of the time I am really happy. I like the people I've met here, and I can honestly understand why everyone says college is the best time of your life. You'd be surprise how well you can function on your own, setting your own rules, getting your own responsibilities in order. I don't mind coming onto the concrete campus because I know I am right for this place. I just can't believe that it is November and that I have to move back home (even if it is for a month). It just gives me the motivation to start saving up for a place.

I feel like I am rambling, and that I have to update this thing more often. It is getting to that point where its too cold to go out, so we all just run to each other rooms and watch internet TV and drink tea/wine. So. Classy.